MY MILLENNIAL DUDE: Finding Male Allies At The Women’s March

My pre-teen daughters didn’t want to go to DC and I didn’t push it, not wanting to force them into any activity against their will, be it cross-country skiing or hugging or political protest. They didn’t want to go, and to be honest I was relieved to have space for my own experience, to travel solo to the capitol and march with my two high school best friends, the same gals who’d coined our senior-year slogan: My Body Is A Shrine. We called it “My B.I.A.S.” and hand-painted the acronym in puffy letters on XL Hanes tee-shirts we wore at sleepovers.

At 17, we kept each other honest and knew each other’s weaknesses. One Saturday night senior spring, Stacey made me don a supersized maxi-pad to go hang out with a rogue-ish college freshman, hoping the feminine product would help me keep my pants on (it didn’t). I was perpetually infatuated and pushed the boundaries with boys any chance I got. My friends always forgave me for my dramas and obsessions—even in college when I struggled to explain what had happened with my frat-guy crush in a dorm room.


It took Donald Trump’s election for me to use the words “date rape.” Call me a half-hearted feminist. Call me a puppet of the patriarchy whose internalized misogyny made her submissively silent. But I’m a poet— language is my currency. I wanted to be precise. So I called it “coercion” or “a gray area,” always acknowledging my own confusion and complicity. I was reluctant to claim the victim role when other women had been jumped in parks or gang-raped in fraternity basements. Those were the women who’d been lawfully abused, not me, who’d led the cute guy down the hall to an empty single. Not me, who was always up for “fooling around”— our vague term for erotic adventure in the 90s.

I resisted the word rape for 25 years but then the Pussy-Grabber took power and that event ignited an old fury in me I hadn’t known was smoldering. At least 13 women had stepped up and accused this man of assault—groping them, kissing them, worse—but enough Americans shrugged off his crass actions to vote him Commander-in-Chief. For decades, Trump had unabashedly objectified women, treated their bodies as extensions of his vast business empire, a kind of real estate to which he was sexually entitled. Now his Presidency legitimized that behavior.

So I traveled down to DC in my dark-pink pussy hat—knit during long, ice-bound January nights. I was staying with a dear family friend in the Takoma Park bungalow she’d dubbed “The Revolution B & B,” where I met a cadre of fierce feminists who’d been protesting since the 60s. I was expecting outrage and catharsis. I was expecting the solidarity of strong women. What I wasn’t expecting were the men.


I stepped off the Metro at 7:20 am and saw a tall Black ACLU guy wearing a fuchsia pussy hat. He stood beside a cardboard Statue of Liberty handing out signs, banners, and sashes to the first trickle of marchers. I loved his dedication and enthusiasm, his willingness to don the emblem of female resistance. We grinned at each other. He handed me a “Dissent is Patriotic” button. I snapped his picture and walked on.

By the time I met up with Stacey and Sarah on the corner of 4th and Independence, we were packed in a surging crowd of protesters, an ocean of pussy hats in every shade of pink—fluorescent, pastel, raspberry, coral. Standing like sardines on our little square of sidewalk, we saw Gloria Steinem on the Jumbo-Tron in her black leather jacket and iconic aviator sunglasses. She raised her voice above the crowd’s roar and proclaimed:

“We are here for bodily integrity. If you cannot control your body from the skin in, you cannot control it from the skin out. You cannot control your lives…”

She was talking about reproductive rights, but her message applied to sexual freedom and safety. “Bodily integrity”— the right to say no and say yes, to decide who and when and how you’re going to fuck. Later, Cecile Richards, president of Planned Parenthood, demanded reproductive justice and declared, “We’re not going to take this lying down…”

And I thought about lying on my back in that dorm single when I was 18 and saying “no” quietly, in a half-apologetic manner, but still saying it, repeating it even, saying no and no again until I realized I was hearing the syllable inside my head, not speaking it with my voice.

What had happened to “My B.I.A.S.” that night? I understood the boy was not going to leave and instead of screaming, I went mute while he entered my body. “No means No” they told us in the 90s. Now they tell college students “Yes Means Yes,” and if you want to have sex, all parties involved must say the word out loud. This slogan has become a policy called Affirmative Consent, adopted on many campuses nationwide and even made law in the state of California.

I thought about lying down and taking it and carrying that shame and self-blame like a stone for 25 years. I thought about my crush and how he’d given me a copy of Gibran’s The Prophet for Valentine’s Day. Maybe he was a well-meaning guy but he was drunk and horny and hell-bent on his own pleasure. I’ll never forget the searing pain of that sex, the savage thrusts that seemed to rip me open. I squeezed my eyes shut and moved my hips to make it go faster. When he left I stood in the shower letting warm water soothe my burning vagina. My crotch stung for days afterwards. Whatever had happened, it wasn’t consensual.


“There’s nothing more powerful than a group of determined sisters marching alongside their partners and their determined sons and brothers and fathers, standing up for what we know is right,” said Kamala Harris, California’s newest Democratic Senator, one of the most compelling speakers at the rally and a potential presidential candidate.

She was talking about our men— our “male allies,” as one activist friend called them. Traveling alone to meet the women I loved, fueled by my fury at Trump and his cronies, I hadn’t given the guys much thought, but there they were in the rising energy of the day: men of all flavors, many in pink hats, standing beside their partners and sisters, their mothers and daughters. Some prominent feminists have critiqued male allies within the women’s movement, asking how those who form the dominant culture can help dismantle the patriarchy, but I found their presence in DC respectful and strengthening, an act of true solidarity.

Bearing witness to history at the 5-hour rally, I wished my girls were by my side. But they were back home in Vermont, carousing at the water park with their dad, my husband, cannon-balling off the high dive, swimming the length of the pool, fearless and secure in their own strong bodies. Their father is a man of principle, a man who has never had dubious sex with a woman before— no “gray area” experiences when her consent might have been in question. I want to believe this equals protection, that if girls grow up with such a father, that if they see their mother raise her voice for justice, it will protect them from pussy-grabbers everywhere.

But I know this is magical thinking. 1 in 4 women experience sexual assault on campus. And girls and young women aged 12-34 have the greatest risk of being raped. What my daughters need are open, honest conversations about sex (both its joys and its risks), as well as courage, confidence, and self-defense training.


Appropriately, my pussy-hat ears looked more demonic than feline. Swept up in a euphoric pink-capped sea, I raised my arms high to display my sign— MY PUSSY MY RIGHTS—an evolution from my college feminism, because I never would have used the word “pussy” at 18, whether for practical or intimate purposes. It took a new generation of women like Lena Dunham to talk unapologetically about their anatomy and sexuality for me to claim that language for myself. Reading Dunham’s memoir, I saw my story in her chapter about dorm-room sexual assault. Her conflicted narrative gave me the courage to write my own:

“I feel like there are fifty ways it’s my fault. I fantasized. I took the big pill and the small pill… I was hungry to be seen. But I also know that at no moment did I consent to being handled that way…I never gave him permission. In my deepest self I know this, and the knowledge of it has kept me from sinking.”

     –Lena Dunham, Not That Kind of Girl

In a recent interview with Dunham, memoirist Mary Karr commended the Millennials for their open-minded contributions to feminism: “I think women of your generation, they have better underwear… Better politics. I think they like themselves a little better. I think the men of your generation are a little better, a little more sophisticated.”

Diana with her sign, courtesy Diana Whitney

I believe Karr is right, but we still have a long way to go. Peggy Orenstein’s research on girls and sex reveals what happens in today’s dorm singles, how porn has influenced our sexuality, and how girls are expected to perform oral sex without any thought of male reciprocity. Orenstein interviews dozens of college women who consistently prioritize their partners’ satisfaction over their own. The way forward, says Orenstein, is through more candid Sex Ed., and more “honest conversations between adults and teenagers about what happens after yes — discussions about ethics, respect, decision making, sensuality, reciprocity, relationship building, the ability to assert desires and set limits…We still tend to avoid the biggest taboo of all: women’s capacity for and entitlement to sexual pleasure.”

It’s high time for me to start feeling entitled.


I held MY PUSSY MY RIGHTS aloft like a beacon as our freeform wave of marchers flooded up Pennsylvania Ave. “There’s No Excuse/ For Sexual Abuse!” chanted the masses, a triumphant backbeat to our moving feet.

And that’s when I saw him, the young man in a red bandana sporting a hipster scruff on his chin. He was carrying a sign that read “CONSENT IS SEXY FUCKING REQUIRED” and wearing a slim-fitting black tee-shirt as a subtitle: “I ♥ FEMALE ORGASM.”  Grinning and elated, seemingly alone in the vast crowd, the guy was maybe 25 years old.

I turned around and shouted over the din. “I love your sign! Can I take your picture?”

“Sure!” He beamed brighter. We exchanged a comradely look that verged on the flirtatious. I held up my phone and clicked for posterity.

He was a symbol of hope, this Millennial Dude, out there marching for consent and women’s pleasure. The cynic in me wondered if he was just trying to get laid, but even if so, his sign was right — consent isn’t sexy, not something to be packaged and sold like perfume or lingerie, another romantic accoutrement in our consumer culture.

How can I explain what he meant to me? How I’ve thought about him in the weeks since the March, turned him into a source of solace, a counterpoint to the ignorant frat-boy who violated my body? Who would guess that a Millennial Dude could help a Gen-X mom lay down her burden of shame? I’ve tried to deconstruct his relevance to my experience, question whether it’s un-feminist to place a man at the center of my protest.

But then I lighten up. I look at his sign and his shirt and I have to smile. I imagine his younger cousins or nephews or other enlightened brethren dating my daughters in college. May my girls (if they are straight) meet such evolved men and have amazing sex with them without guilt or self-judgment. May they shout out their boundaries and speak up for their pleasure. May they live out MY B.I.A.S. in the new world we are building.

When I got home, my daughters wanted to see the photos, hear how I flipped the bird to Trump’s hotel and marched to the line of riot police at the roadblock where the White House glimmered through the trees and Beyoncé’s “Run the World (Girls)” blasted from a boom-box. Then they got bored and went back to their Legos.

But the trip was the defining moment of my mid-life, akin to my mother dancing barefoot at Woodstock or my father hunger-striking against Vietnam. In DC, the personal was political and the political was personal. I was marching for all women who had ever been silenced and violated, for my daughters on the cusp of their sexual awakening, for my sisters of all colors, for our male allies everywhere.

Maybe someday my girls will ask me about it, when they’re studying Gender & Society or the history of the Women’s Movement.

“I was there,” I’ll tell them. “I saw the future. I saw it, and I felt hope.”


Diana Whitney’s first book, Wanting It, became an indie bestseller and won the Rubery Book Award in poetry. She’s the poetry columnist for the San Francisco Chronicle and her work has appeared in Glamour, The Washington Post, Salon, MS. Magazine, and many more. When she isn’t teaching yoga, she’s working on a memoir about motherhood and sexuality. Find her at or follow her on Twitter and Instagram @dianawhitney31

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