Roar will publish a first-person story about abortion, “My Abortion: A Daily Story,” every day for at least 365 days. What follows is an excerpt from Sarah’s story. Now married and a new mom, she reflects on her two abortions. Sarah ended her first pregnancy while she was struggling with addiction, and took a risk by turning to her mother for support. Read Sarah’s complete personal narrative that was published by Shout Your Abortion.
“…I was pregnant. On all four tests I took. I was horrified. I knew who the father was, but I wasn’t with him. All I could think of was how I was way too messed up to be a mother, and how I’d already harmed that creature growing in me, and how it would be a tragedy to try to bring it into the world and care for it with no money, no father, and an addict for a mother.
My family was Catholic, and as far as I knew my father would disown me if I told him, but my mother, who was also devout, was a little different. She’d told me once when I was younger about how before I was born, they’d had a nanny for my older sister and brother. The nanny fell in love with a man who got her pregnant. They were married, but afterwards, he started beating her, and said she’d have to move to Iran and live with his family. She was terrified and asked my parents for help. They lived in France, which at the time did not allow abortions. My mom told me she drove the nanny to Belgium to terminate her pregnancy, and that the situation taught her that while her upbringing said abortion was wrong, there are real women who need that option, and that she no longer thought it was.
So, when the guy who got me pregnant wouldn’t return my calls, I called my mother…”