Roar will publish a first-person story about abortion, “My Abortion: A Daily Story,” every day for at least 365 days. The following excerpt opens Maggie’s story. She talks about having an abortion when she was 22 and finishing college, after experiencing an unplanned pregnancy. Maggie knows her decision was right for her, but also shares about navigating feelings of guilt. Read her full narrative that was published by Ravishly.
“There is blood on my hands. The nurse, a young woman in pink scrubs, apologizes as she sops up my excess blood from the table, from the floor. She was just supposed to draw a sample, but having pulled the stopper almost all the way out before inserting the syringe into my vein, she accidentally created a hungry vacuum that was already at capacity. My blood flows freely, with nowhere to go except everywhere.
I feel distant from myself, from the blood that’s all over. It’s mine but not a part of me anymore. It is useless now. It is waste.
It drips down my arm, forming a pool in the palm of my hand. And even then, I remember thinking: It was too on the nose, too obvious a symbol. Very fucking funny, universe, I thought….”