Roar will publish a first-person story about abortion, “My Abortion: A Daily Story,” every day for at least 365 days. The following excerpt opens Aspen Baker’s abortion story. Having grown up in a family and faith that was against abortion, she speaks about moving through feelings of shame. She further opens up about how her experience helped her find her life purpose as founder of Exhale, which addresses the “emotional health and wellbeing of women and men after abortion.” Read her full personal narrative that was published by Elle magazine.
“If you had talked to 24-year-old me, I would have told you that my abortion was one of the worst experiences of my life because I felt conflicted about it for a long time. I grew up pro-life, in a “surfing Christian” community in Southern California, where the ocean was our favorite place of worship. I didn’t know a single person who had an abortion—or at least no one ever told me that they’d had one. In high school, the idea of abortion made me so sad I knew if I ever got pregnant unexpectedly I could never have one.
I felt stupid for getting pregnant, and I desperately wished for a fourth option. Couldn’t there be something besides abortion, adoption or being a mom? I didn’t want to go down a single one of those paths, but there was no way around it. I started making plans to get an abortion, telling myself that I could always back out at the last minute….”