Roar will publish a first-person story about abortion, “My Abortion: A Daily Story,” every day for at least 365 days. Below is the opening of Louise’s story. While she had always believed in access to abortion, she discusses how making a personal decision was more complex than she previously thought. Read Louise’s full personal narrative at Shout Your Abortion, a “network of individuals talking about abortion on [their] own terms and creating space for others to do the same.”
“I have identified as pro-choice since I was around 13 years old. My friends and I would often talk about what would happen if we were to get pregnant when too young, and the answer was always ‘I’d get an abortion’. We weren’t being blithe about it, we just knew that this was an option and it was a good option when you feel incapable of raising an entire other human being. There were lots of pregnancy scares around the ages of 16-18 and after that, I just sort of forgot about it.
Getting accidentally pregnant at 25 with a supportive boyfriend and a steady job was a different experience. I wasn’t quite prepared for how being pro-choice doesn’t mean that your choice will naturally be to end a pregnancy. I also wasn’t prepared for how thinking about a baby whilst being pregnant isn’t just an intellectual process, but shaped by the biological experience that you feel in your body. I pretty much knew I was pregnant before I took a test because my boobs had gotten huge and tender, and I was nauseous on a daily basis. Making a decision when you feel something already changing in your body is an entirely different process to what I imagined as a teenager. It felt as though the baby was already a reality inside of me, not an abstract concept for discussion…”