Roar will publish a first-person story about abortion, “My Abortion: A Daily Story,” every day for at least 365 days.
Today’s story comes from Ashley and was originally published at the Thanks, Abortion! website.
I am currently in college and met a guy through a friend. We hit it off and though it was completely not like me, we had sex on the first date. I got pregnant. By the time I had found out, he has already told me he was falling n love with me and wanted me to move in with him. Whoa! I had just gotten out of a very long relationship and this was all too much, too soon. I ended up staying with him and he started telling people we were expecting, even though I had asked him not to. I was only 5 weeks.
My family is very conservative and very prolife. I didn’t think that I could even tell my mom that I was pregnant for fear of disappointing her and my father. So I didn’t.
I had an abortion when I was 6 weeks pregnant. I was so freaked out about everything that I had read about the abortion pill and the process of passing everything but it was not as bad as I thought it would be, still not the most pleasant experience.
I told the guy that I had a miscarriage and left it at that. He said he wanted a family with me but I’m still young. It was stupid for me to get pregnant to begin with but after this, I make sure it won’t happen again.
I probably should have told him the truth but when we had talked about it, he said there was no need to get married or anything like that so I saw this as a decision to make for myself because he is not looking out for my best interest.
It still saddens me sometimes but I am very thankful that I will not be raising a child alone. It wasn’t so much the alone part that scared me but the fact that I had no support system, no one to even tell any of this to.