Roar will publish a first-person story about abortion, “My Abortion: A Daily Story,” every day for at least 365 days.
Today’s story comes from 1 in 3 Campaign, a grassroots movement devoted to a new conversation about abortion in our own terms.
Christina suffers from Bipolar disorder and ADD. She tried, unsuccessfully, to convince her doctor to tie her tubes. Instead, she ended up pregnant. This is her story.
I was 29 years old and married for 2.5 years when I decided that I wanted to have a tubal ligation. We had no children but I suffered from bi-polar disorder, ADD, and agoraphobia. I was usually heavily medicated to control my symptoms and also had periods of time when I couldn’t function. My husband and I also struggled financially. I had to see a new gynecologist because I had recently moved to the area. She declined my request for a tubal ligation and said that I should use an IUD that would be effective for 10 years. I reluctantly agreed. 6 weeks later I returned to have the IUD checked…my body had partially expelled the device, rendering it useless. I took a pregnancy test that came back positive. After a few days my husband and I decided to stay pregnant. We told our families. I spent the upcoming weeks being very unsure but forging ahead because in my community that’s just what you did. I became very sick, I lost 25 lbs. Between 4 doctors no one could tell me what medications were safe for the baby. I was also very close to losing my job because I was so ill. At 20 weeks I went home in tears and told my husband that I couldn’t continue the pregnancy. I terminated my pregnancy that week. I had to travel to Maryland because Pennsylvania does not allow anesthesia. I know I made the right decision because we lost our home 3 months later and I haven’t been able to work or care for myself properly for the last 2 years. With that said there would have been no way for me to properly care or provide for a child.